song of the day: 'i'll be' by edwin mccain
so i'm sitting here in a hotel room overlooking the fayetteville square on this the 30th anniversary of my birth. yep, that's right. today's my birthday. i've been dreading this day for about 5 years. i love my birthday. like it's my favorite day of the year, then christmas. yeah, it's a big deal to me. but this one is a bit harder for me to take. it's the realization that i'm no longer young. i've always been the youngest. in my family, among my friends, and really just anyone i hung out with. but now it's not that way. i'm old.
but it's not all sad. as i look back on my 20s, i learned a ton. i know myself better now than i did 10 years ago. i'm happier, more fit and healthy than i was when i turned 20. i think i'm finally coming to terms with the things i didn't like about myself. i have a better relationship with me. i love more now than i did then. so, it's not as sad a day as i had made it out to be. i think this will definitely be a day of reflection for me. well that and a day of shopping.
my sweet husband surprised me by lining up a sitter for our son so he could take me out to dinner and to stay a night in town. i was pretty thrilled. we took these pictures before leaving the house last night. aren't we cute? seriously, we look so cool in our all black. but anyway, we had a fantastic night. now we are going to hit the vintage stores like ravenous dogs before it's time to pick the kiddo up from school. so i'll leave you all now and get to it!