Sunday, May 13, 2012

mother's day thoughts

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mothers day is really one of my favorite days of the year.  it always starts with music and mimosas.  then we pile in bed to eat breakfast and i get showered with hugs and kisses and sweet cards.  this year i also got a rad unicorn painting.
but today is truly about so much more than that.  seven years and nine months ago, i embarked on this crazy journey called motherhood.  i remember looking down at the tiny little boy in my arms with ZERO emotion.  i didn't really know what to think or how to feel.  the first year of his life was spent in a fog trying to figure out who i was and who this kid was that i somehow managed to bring into the world.  it was hard.  a lot of days are hard and i wonder why i got myself into this.  but, there are moments that are sweeter than honey and times that i thank the Lord over and over again for blessing me beyond all measure for this little life i get to shape and mold.  and as he grows up, we become better friends and our relationship changes to accommodate a different level of mother/son intimacy.  it's pretty remarkable really.  as he asserts his independence, i see that he actually depends on me more and more.  not in the all encompassing way of infanthood, but for the safety and comfort i can provide him-both physically and emotionally.  to me, these are much sweeter times than the ones at the beginning of his life.  i realize now that while i'm not a great mother, i AM a good one.  and we are exactly perfect for each other.  

1 comment:

Consider Me Lovely said...

This is such a lovely post! It's so nice to read about your relationship with your son. I'm glad you had a great Mother's day!